I promise I will continue writing about my trip to Dubai and Egypt, but right now I want to talk about something else. Heh.
Today is the 3rd day of 2015. Differ from previous years, this year I celebrate it like a loser. HAHA. No resolution. Okay macam menipu pulak. Resolution comes when you want to achieve something. I don’t plan to achieve anything yet, but what I wish that I can walk through 2015 in not so much difficulties.
If you read a lot (either through believable source or rumors hehe) you will know what we’re going to face this year. Dengan GST-nya, dengan ramalan ekonomi jatuhlah, begitu begini dan sebagainya. Lepas tu my current job pun not so promising since they just hire me for contract basis, sure I’m scared like hell.
Tapi saya percaya pada pertolongan Allah. Like how people can survive during recession 1997-1998, insya-Allah, Allah will help me and all of us to go through this year. Provided saya pun kena lah berusaha. Tawakal number wahid. Nombor dua barulah usaha. Ketiga baru doa. Lain skit kan turutan dia? 😉 Ntahlah.. which one is true, but I have some thought about this. Doesn’t matter lah yang mana pun. Janji ada tiga-tiga, kan?
So what’s my thoughts is?
1. Mestilah berjimat cermat
Seriously I have to monitor my expenses. Previous years tu tak konsisten sangat. Bila sibuk, saya pun tak monitor. Now I need to be more persistent. Okaylah, no need to describe more about berjimat cermat.
2. Card credit is not an option
Last year, I used credit card for petrol and to buy things that quite expensive. Not to forget, flight ticket. Heh. So saya akan cuba use more cash money for petrol and shopping. Flight ticket tu rasanya tak mampu lagi kot.
3. Saving saving and saving
Because of the incident of missing flight to Dubai hari tu, include a few unexpected and unfortunate events (eh macam cerita A Series of Unfortunate Event) all my accounts drained (saving and emergency). (TT_TT) Takpelah. Past is past. Barang yang lepas usah dikenang. So I’m gonna save save and save for future. Kita isi semua tabung balik kasi penuh-penuh!! HAHAH. Eh gelak pulak saya. Doalah. Ya Allah, permudahkan usaha saya ni. Ameen. 🙂
4. Looking for new job.
Despite the not-so-happy-working-environment here, my other motivation to change job is because they hire me on contract basis. Saya pun dah confuse macam mana saya boleh accept the offer hari tu. Huhu. So now, kena lah pergi cari kerja yang lebih munasabah sikit.
Nak cerita, semalam saya kena marah dengan boss. On phone. Yang saya make the call. Di waktu maghrib pulak tu. To summaries, bos said I’m not committed with Team’s objectives. Nasib baik cakap team’s objectives. Kalau cakap with my work, saya rasa baik saya tender resign. Not worth saya bersusah payah menangis-nangis bagai kalau easily judge I’m not committed. And I guess I was his punching bag yesterday, sebab tiba-tiba complained that about the team as well. Tapi dia takde lah tengking-tengking ke apa. Just saying, tapi agak makan dalam jugaklah.
I was probably wrong too sebab tak fulfill my promise to meet the users. Tapi bukan saja-saja, user was not available too, and I had an ad-hoc meeting that evening. Tu belum lagi everyone chasing me for issue tickets.
Kesilapan yang paling besar adalah mungkin saya tak menjawab. First because I was dump struck when he accused me for not committed. Lagipun saya dah serik orang tuduh saya bagi excuses. Although he try to counter back by saying that he’s offering help if I cannot handle it, provided I need to inform him first. And he also said about being maturity is about being able to ask for help.
I don’t know people, tapi saya memang dah tak percaya kat orang dah. What if I asked for help, then suddenly he say that I’m not capable of my job. What if I just told him problem, and he said I’m trying to give an excuse. Oh saya dah kena hari tu. I won’t repeat the same mistake again.
HAHAHA. Panjang plak aduan saya ni. Tapi semalam tu saya betul-betul bengang. Dan sedih. Dan marah jugak. So malam tadi saya pun buat kerja. Dah tadi jugak. Dan esok jugak. I try to solve and do work as many as I can. If he still want to play the blame game, that’s it! Terima sajalah offer company lama saya. Mungkin tempat ni kurang sesuai untuk saya.
Okaylah. That’s my resolution. May Allah guide me to face 2015 and to face this life.